There you go

I enrolled already and I'm taking up nursing. I don't know if I will like my school or the people in it, I don't care. The reason I did not get Mass Comm, because I am sick with my old school, that's the only choice. In UERM, it will be a new place.



One whole year would be spend on UE main, it would be far from home and closer to snatchers, pollution and above ordinary temperature. I want to join a club (if there is any), pursue badminton perhaps. LOL. So I can burn some fats each week. If not, school paper maybe? I already know someone who is in it. She's a sophomore by next year, LOL connections.


I can't really predict what the hell would happen to me.
I'm still thinking on how to get money at the moment....



P.S. Still no computer at home D; sucks.

Talked

I have talked to my brother, the other night. Frankly I can't really remember that much, I was like blogging verbally, and too bad there isn't any 'autosave' After I yelled at him and the like, I calmed down and forgot about half of it. LOL.

Anyway, as far as I can remember, I told him that what frustrates me is that it has been a week and still he did not stand up and take the responsibility. By that I mean, he did not went and approach my parents and say sorry. I also told him that he should have controlled his emotions or even think about the consequences. I told him that if there is something behind what he has done, I mean why he really did that, what urge he felt for doing that -- he have to tell everything. However, he said that nobody will listen. "E hindi ka naman nagsasalita e!"

I told him that he does not speak up that he does not even try. "There's no need." Well I guess he is angry, and that anger must be released and I told him that one night we will all sit down and let him do the talk. I told him that during that night it would only be him to do the talking while I try my best to keep my parents quiet.

I also told him that what I notice about our parents is that they misunderstood him at many points for the fact that he does not explain himself. They may have commit a lot of faults here but he to must admit his. He can't completely blame them for not trusting him, he has done a lot of things in the past and have given lots of chances that he did break. My parents have grown to be precautious and it is because of his doings. He must know that.

My family needs to listen to one another.
My parents did a lot of talking.
My brother haven't done anything.

GAAH.

Where do I enter? HAHA. Well my parents, since then does not allow me to listen to their problems. They would shoo me away, specially during my grade school times --- they would shoo me away. They thought I am a kid not to be able to understand HAHA. Ow well, this moment isn't about me, it's about my brother so I can't really tell about myself.

L to the C to the D

Been out for a while! And no I do not mean that I have been out of town, enjoying summer. No. what I mean is that I have been out of sight in my blog. There have been problems inside our home. Family problems: Misunderstandings, jealousy, misinterpretations, unwillingness to let the other side speak up, prejudicial thoughts. Pile them all together, emotional breakdown of one member -- or all.

My brother sold our LCD monitor. It's about 14k. Why did he do that? Well first, he told mom that he wants to take the CPU out to his friends house. I don't know exactly why, but my mom said no. Next, together with my mom and dad, we went out to enroll myself. But before leaving, my dad placed the CPU inside their room so that he will not be able to bring it out, in case something in his mind twitch and the evil will be unleased. Just in case.


However, when we got home the LCD was gone and my dad was so angry.
My brother texted my mom telling that it was stolen because he placed it near the window of his friend's house, and by the time he look back, it was gone.

Lame. Lame. Lame.

It was so obvious that he was making the "someone-stole-it" story so perfect that my mom will not question it. Then later on after some (well a lot) of censored conversations, he gave up and told that yes, he sold it. He said he got frustrated because they placed the CPU inside.

For me, his reasoning is quite childish. He should not have let into his emotions and just do that. He also sold my father's cellphone by the way. I guess he has a lot of crap inside his head. He did all of this because he wanted revenge. I guess he could really go this far.

I cannot help him. Nor does my parents, for the fact that he won't speak up. I can never imagine a problem being solved that only one side takes some effort. Must be mutual -- to make it easier.
Well it can be one sided effort but, if it is for him, I might disagree.

So there.

I'm feeling annoyed right now.

I'm doing this entry in an internet shop. And my mom is looking right now! I'm feeling uncomfortable. Good thing I set the font to smallest and good thing she does not have a good eyesight.


End.


P.S. Sorry blogmates, I'll drop by your sites next time I go online. Take care of yourselfves.

Eldest Son

If I am able to choose my gender and family position in life, I would like to be a guy and be the eldest. Then I want to have about 2 younger siblings -- a boy and a girl, perhaps twins?

I just thought about the traits of a guy. Well a guy is physically stronger than a girl (specially when he trains for some sport or martial art) and he would be able to protect people around him. Being the eldest will give him the confidence to take into action whenever someone is in need. He will be responsible for his siblings and also protect them at all cost. He may be able to inspire them at times when they need it. HAHA. But he perhaps he will also be silly and will be able to crack jokes. He can also fancy on you know "things" that fancy men. But it will not affect his way of treating to girls -- he will still be gentle and be himself most probably.

Well I was just wondering if I wasn't a girl, will this be my personality type? HAHA.
This is just a character/personality in my mind.
Well maybe a something that I am looking forward for a brother, which I don't have.

Sometimes I think the opposite sex is better... haha.
Joke.
Sure they have flaws.
What I am thinking are characters. Mere characters whom I haven't met. If ever someone is like this, someone who I can call "kuya" then damn I can stop thinking about "what if" I was one. I will just enjoy the love that elder brother give me. HAHA.

Intelligent Loner

You're like me! The intelligent loner. You're shy at times but friendly, and you are never weak and always independent. You are incredibly intelligent (wise beyond your years) and have a talent for many things (sports, music, art). You have a kind and warm personality and enjoy the simple things. Like hanging out with friends and watching movies at home. But you're sometimes quiet nature makes you a bit of an outcast and a mystery to people. No matter how pretty you are or smart or athletic, you just can't seem to break into the crowd and be noticed. Don't worry, try to be more outgoing and speak out when you have more to say. Don't hide behind your books and sports and computer, get out there and get noticed. You also have deep desires in life and feel vunerable and alone at times. Don't feel sad either, What helps me to express feelings and dreams that I can't say to people, is through my writting. Maybe you should try.

HAHA. Got this quiz from Janelle
It's just funny because last night, I went to the party of my friend -- people in there were of different ages. I only got 1 friend around (well somehow, a close friend) whom I am comfortable with. And I only dance if he dances LOL. I want him to teach me, but when others tend to tease me "uyy sumasayaw na" (because I never dance) I would stare at them and laugh -- then later on stop. I think I am someone who can show others the real me only if they are close to me -- and this group of people ? I know just little bit of them, I need something (the retreat with them or outing) to know them. LOL I really have a hard time with this kind of personality -- shy person shy

enjoy the simple things - haha true hahahah very simple things like white things falling from trees then i'll catch it (looks like the one in fairy tales haha)

outcast and a mystery to people - I like it when I watch people

you just can't seem to break into the crowd and be noticed - when they start noticing, it's time to stop :'( haha unless they are my friends -- then go!

Don't hide behind your books and sports and computer - I do like all of these, I would rather play a sport with random people

through my writting - express self through writing, I have been doing that but I only let random people read and of course, my friends. LOL


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Just toss a coin

What will you do when faced with two choices?

Simple.

Just toss a coin.

It works, not because it settles the question for you,

But while the coin is in the air,

You suddenly know what you're hoping for.

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Did it made you laugh? Nod? It makes sense doesn't it.
This one helped me and made me realize, I shouldn't really bother about the things I am facing now, one should really weigh more even if you can't explain it. The explanation could always follow.

I was also asking my mom, regarding which one she prefers, she insists and does not answer. But I also insist that she shall answer -- but I was thinking of what I really want inside my mind. So there was no point of continuing the conversation :]

I may not know "why" at this point. But I can not just be stucked here and be frustrated about it. I can feel that I am interested in it, so why not?

The answer to "why" will come at the right time.