Stacked up frustration

I do well in math.

I can identify clauses easily.

I memorized Alexander the Great, and Hannibal’s history

Including Nero, Nebuchadnezzar and Assurbanipal in a snap.

Noli Me Tangere is an easy read.

S P D F are letters I can’t forget.

I sew my own clothes.

And I compose my own songs.

And I know…

… I know

ASA

Pa ko!

I am so frustrated on what's happening to me. Me and my grades. I don't know where did my concern for my studies go. I don't know how I can cope with all of the projects and all of the groupworks.

I just want EVERYTHING to end.
This quarter is full of unfortunate events.
I can't go any LONGER.

I quit.

Blah blah blah.

I say I quit.
But I just can't leave those things like that. I'll do it. Just for the sake of doing it. I'll put no extra effort. I know nothing will happen anyway, why do so?

I remember, our guidance class awhile ago.Many of us got an IQ of AA. But still many of us fails.Because we don't use our IQ's. Yeah I know, I don't use mine properly. That's what my mom said.

Why? Because we are not motivated. Instead of helping us to accomplish everything, it seems that a lot of things are bringing us down. Even teachers! Oh if they give us energetic, humourous but serious teachers, we could put that IQ you're telling us into practice. But hell no. Perhaps 1 out of 5 teachers teaches in that manner.

I am thinking a lot of what if's.
If I study in a public school, would I still be like this?
Would I be more responsible? Respectful?
Would I enjoy school more?
If our school will allow us to chose our subjects, will I be like this?
Will I still cram?
Will I hate teachers?
Will my motivation grow?

Crap.
Screw this.

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