Seriously.

I hate people who are treating your words as not serious. Example, when you say something and you are serious about it -- and then the reply you will get from them are sarcastic, "joke-like" responses, doesn't it frustrate you?

Awhile ago, we were talking about the debate in our english class. We are planning when we will practice. So I told them that we can practice dismissal time monday -- up till night. They responded sarcasticly, "Hahaha ikaw mag isa". Before they think of something, or before they reconsider what they will say, they blurted that thing out. I do not mean night -- meaning 7? 8? I mean around 5! or 5:30! But before I could clear myself out, they have butted in with those kinds of answers. After that I just kept quiet because I have the feeling of irritation. How can they UNDERSTAND me if they do NOT listen? Listening is much more important than speaking all of the time. Yes they have their opinions but can't they listen to mine?

I'm not a kind of person who can pick up words perfectly upon being asked.
I'm better writting my thoughts than saying them on the spot.
If not written down, I need some time to gather up my thoughts.

Well on that instant, what I said does not need any plan -- it is normal talk. The real problem is that THEY butted in.

There are many times that they did that to me.
When I am telling my opinion, halfway of the whole they will butt in and tell me the wrong things in my opinion.

They SO lack the ability to listen.
Well as for me, I lack the ability to SPEAK. Really. Sometimes when I have things in my mind, I can't tell them easily especially to people I don't really know and I really don't want. Damn, this flaw of mine will kill me.

I just hope I can learn to speak up whenever people treat me like that.

Another thing, I hate people who underestimate! I'm being underestimated because of my silence, Madali rin kasi akong mabara so -- natutuwa naman sila dun peste.

They don't know how to give a chance and they don't know how to wait for a person to get ready. All they want are people who can act on the spot or speak up on the spot. They don't like people who are lke me, that needs extra time.

Consider this: Other people have the skill to perform right away. Others needs time. HOWEVER both sides come up with same great ideas. Get my point? Everyone can do it but not everyone are recognized.

I am still frustrated at this point, I just try to calm myself down by putting in mind the fact that this debate would be over by Tuesday.

Whew.
Plus, it relieved me that I typed this things down ^^