Kuy

Okay. So natapos na ang usapan. Teka, sa tingin ko HINDI pa tapos.
Pilipino kasi e, mahilig sa tsismis. Pero sa akin TAPOS na.

Yun na yon. Kung ano mang sunod na mangyari, tingnan nalang natin. Syempre hindi ako makapagsasabi kung ano ang maaaring mangyari dahil WALA pa ako dun e.

I will just give myself a hard time, assuming and thinking about something that is not presented in front of me.

After the meeting, these two persons approached me. I was sad because they suddenly blurted out that "Hey, I'm leaving the choir" That really shocked me and frustrate me because I do not want them to leave. They are two persons whom I looked up to. One of the first few faces I was intoduced to in the group.

However when we were walking back, I cannot ignore the thought of them -- using me. Well that is my opinion. Because of the lines "Can you show it to me" In addition, he looked desperate when he suggested that I, renew my multiply password just to view something. THAT is suspicious. I asked myself "Is he using the fact that I admire him?" Perhaps he thought that I would -- fall in the same pit twice.

I thank him for the compliments he gave, those were sweet enough to make me fall. But showing such desperation? It lead me to disbelief.

WORDS can really BUY a person

IF the heart processess the words BEFORE the mind.

I learned my lesson.
NEVER talk TOO much.
My name was called out a couple of times.
I felt nervous -- but I realized it was my role to get involved. So yeah, bring it. But I am no longer entertaining it.

I cannot always hide from such problems, nor can I distant myself.
But I can allow myself to think rationally.
I have my opinions and it all came from my thoughts. If there are misunderstandings, I may be the one who is wrong or perhaps the one who is right. But the real point here is that -- I have something in mind. I might have been hearing lots of comments and leaned on each side, but hell -- I CAN always change my mind. Why shouldn't I change my mind. I haven't mastered seeing the righteous one in one sitting anyway.

Emotions are used sparingly.

Facts are always right. Unless it came from facts that are proven wrong.

"Sorry" is not a closed statement, rather an open one. Thus, entails explanation.

So yeah.
IT'S ALL WORK at this moment.
I am sorry but the connection and relationship that I have established seems to have been torned. Yes, you are still my brothers -- but there is something missing. When you turned your back so easily...

So I guess -- "Kuya" is just a label. Not a sign of friendship.

Did I lost someone?
I guess not.
I never had someone anyway.

Now I don't feel anything.
That is my last cry -- noticed it lasted easily?