Part of the Process

Last week was frustrating
I bet the following will stay the same.

First, I'm frustrated with my two MQR's. I fail both. Well I can't do anything. Past won't change. It's true that I did fail. Upon seeing the results of my tests, I think I deserve such grade. I was playing the first half of the quarter. Playing in a sense that I don't take these two subjects seriously.

I mean I study them, but at the moment I fail to understand, I give up easily.

Well it's very easy to give up.
Just drop everything and all yer burdends would be gone.

But, the big thing is to accept the consequence of failing.
Which is more painful than unable to understand.

I don't know why important realizations always concludes one's failure.
If you fail, you'll realize that you should not do this and that. But while doing the thing, you can't even contemplate on the future. Weird. Just weird.

ANYWAY.
Same thing happened. I can't do anything but be frustrated.
Remember this frustration.
And beat the rest of the quarter.

At least there is still some perseverance left in me at this point.

I'm thinking of STICKING my failing grades in the walls of my room so it can tell to my face each day that I wake up that "hey, you suck". Then I will answer it with "dream on, your days are over".

Hehe.
Yeah. Just... kidding... ? hehe.

I want to beat those failing marks. If I do, I'll be the happiest person on earth. For that particular minute.

And you know what, I am hating people who are born smart, responsible, unlazy and all those positive remarks. haha!

Sorry I'm not them.
I still need to undergo the process you call LEARNING.