LETSE

One of my weakness in singing is being tested by the instructor. As the instructor let you sing the notes one by one, I get off tune. It is because I get nervous. I don't know why, but I believe that there are things you can't remove from youself. The effort can be seen (well I most certainly try to), but the characteristics stays for some reasons.

In Psychology, they talk about hormones or certain liquids (i don't know what its called) in the brain that measures one's capacity of happiness, depression etc. I guess there is also something that stimulates one's nervousness -- and once it is activated, it is hard to recuperate. Well maybe the stimulator in my body is triggered easily, that is why I have the tendency to feel nervous and I think the only way to contradict it is: Courage -- a characteristic acquired.

The first time I encountered something like this, I cried. But not in front of people. I felt down, who wouldright ? But today, I did have the courage to think about things and tolerate the words and... well let's say... humiliation.

Our instructod told us that we must not be shy about performing, because we are performers. It made me think about ... I know that I am not the best one, but I place my effort because I like what I am doing. However if he uses words that are harsh and thinks that we will ALWAYS be courageous enough to face it, he's wrong. There maybe times that we'll be brave enough and let those things pass, but there will come a time that we will not be able to handle it.

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
Paimportante naman sa buhay e. Wala ngang grade ito e. Masama ba kasing kumanta dahil gusto mo lang. E kung ayaw pala niyang mahirapang magturo, e bat niya pa kami ipinasa? Ano, DAHIL wala na silang ibang mahatak na mapagtiyatagaan...

Yek. Nagtagalog. And balbal kasi kung tagalog. HAHA.
Anyway, mahirap talaga pag kinakabahan... HALATA sa boses. Unang mahahalata ang pagkakaba sa boses. Kaya hirap ako. Ang kaso, kahit isang libong advices pa ang ibigay sa akin, wala silang magagawa dahil AKO ang kinakabahan at ang boses ko ang nanginginig. Ako lang ang magpapakalma sa sarili ko at ako lang ang makakapagdiretso sa boses ko.

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.
Palalampasin ko ito.
Tapos na itong issue sa buhay ko pagkatapos kong i-post ang blog na ito.

After ng First Semester... ayoko na.